To you my friend

We were still in high school when I first met you. I don't want to feel the way that I do. I just don't want to be a fool in your eyes. But, how do I explain that I fall in love with you..?


Although time has passed I still get suprised. I wonder why I keep you on my heart. If this feeling's proving anything I just want to say it straight from my heart that I miss You..


I'm scared to tell you how I feel. What would it take for you to see and to make you understand that I'll always believe that you and I can make it through.


Bittersweet memories, that all I can take with me. We shared our name on the silver necklace. Same as my feeling towards you, it's never faded.


But now I know you happy with your life. I wish you joy and happiness. But above all this I wish you love. 


I don't wanna see us apart but how do I when all words are pale..?
All I want is one more chance to show you that I love you. I was blind to let you go but now I want you back in future if there still love for me..

You'll always be in my heart

" Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead " - Adele.

This is the first song you dedicated to me and now i give it back to you. You'll be in my heart. Still in love with you. 

This song always remind me of you.. 

I don't want to say Goodbye..

HEART BREAK..FALL TO PIECES.. ;(

I'm sure all of us had experience this situation. It's really hurt. This is the first time I feel really bad breaking up with someone. I think that the best for him but not for me. I do regret with all my decision. Maybe I shouldn't have to let you go at the first time. But my heart really hurt when I know that you with your ex-Gf again. You know the best for you so I can't be mad about it. I can't control your life. I wish you all the best in your future. Thanks for been a part of my life even it just for 3 months. I really appreciate it. I'll never forget you coz you are my first love.

You make me smile dear GM..

Actually it happened on Feb 6,2012....

For the first time..he sang a song for me. It's feel like AWESOME..!!!!
I don't care about his voice. He's not an singer anyway. But i really like it when he start to sing me that song.. TONIGHT by WESTLIFE...it's our favourite band. His voice kindda nervous when he sang the first line but he can do it well. Love him so much. He promise me that he will sing a song for me every night before go to bed. You had promise me o dear..jgn pndai2 mau lupa..! kasi ketuk kepala nnt..!!

1st SONG..Tonight-Westlife.. will always on my mind..it's your fav song bh.. love you so much..!!

 2nd SONG, I miss You-Westlife ( Feb 7,2012 ) ... 2 month anniversary with my love..

  3rd SONG- My Love-Westlife ( Feb 9,2012 )

   Mlm ni sy plan mau sruh dia nyanyi Home by Westlife..cz i'll be back home to miri laaa...can't wait to meet him..Love you dear..just in case sy x smpai2 di miri nnt..ehhehe

My Bestfriend..

My Bestfriend... He's the most awesome guy i've ever know. We had been friends for about 4 yrs now. We share a lot of things and keep each other secrets. He just likes my big brother,always be there for me when i'm lost. I'm glad that he never bored with me..ahaha..he the one i always call when i'm in trouble and he the place where i put my anger of. sorry buddy.. But,when he in trouble,he will tell me everything about it..but he kindda shy when it's about his girl. Now,he single..i've no idea why he didn't have any girl yet..? He was in love with her gf (ex) once and their relationship.. It's hard for him to find the new one after his last relationship. I wish you all the best..! msti ada bh tu.. just wait n see.. there's always be someone better..

Scrapbook..but HOW??

SCRAPBOOK~~~
I've thinking to make a scrapbook but i did't know how to make it. I'm not an creative person but i really want to make it. I have watch some video about making a scrapbook and it was really nice and awesome work. I want to make a scrapbook about my life and i will show it to my family when i grow old. This year i'm sure i will make it..! wish me luck..! 

First Anniversary with My Love..7/1/2012

Today is the best day for us. Although it just 1month but i'm really happy with him. I love you so much dear Gerald...!!!


Going to beach with the love one is really sweet. I'll always remember this day.
Anyway, on this special day his friends are with us. Actually I don't really mind about it. But, i just meet them and  i still kindda shy. That make me lil sad coz i can't even say a single words with them. I just don't know what to say. I'm not good with words..hmmm..really sad.. I thought we can be friends but i don't really think they like me coz of my attitude. Btw, thanx to them that make our day better. I really like them. Oly,Ema,Alex..thanx.. :)

He's Mine~

Yesterday is the day---> 7/12/2011

He show me that he really love me. I'm so so happy.no words can describe it.. I just fall in love with him. Never thought that u will be mine. We have the same feeling towards each other and it call love. I don't care if he younger than me. The important thing is I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. I'll never cheat on u dear. You must promise me the same thing..!! MUST..!!!

All what i want is our journey will remain forever. I don't want anybody else cz I already got u. I love You Gerald.. <3 <3

I'm In LOVE again

Uiiiii...happy2 ni..org yg sy suka mmg suka sy laa..how cn??. He told me that yesterday. Feel like I want to fly without the wing..ahahaa..That the most wonderful time i ever feel. Dia bgtau yg dia suka sy since dia tnmpak sy d sklh..isssh2..mcm drama Korea la plak..nway, I really like him..he the 'LB' boy..aigoooo...but, dia ada gf la..and it's too late la dear..tp kn dia kata dia x suka dia pnya gf..hmmm..yake? setahu sy x da bf yg x ska gf dia..tapi..dia kata dia suka sy..aigoo..lg la pelik..n mmg tkejut abis la..mn x nya,sy suka dia bh..sgt2 lg tu..dia kata dia akn bgtau gf dia but he just don't know how..sy xpnh pn mnta dia break ngn gf dia tp sy suka dia..xkn la dia mau jd kn sy ni scandal dia..issshh..x ku ingin..bgs lg single..but, if he really love me,he would tell her girl the truth right..Hmmmm.. we'll see what happen next. I can't predict anything.. to fall in love with him or to fall apart.. xblh pntingkn diri sndri jg dlm hal ni..suka mmg suka tp fikir pasal org lain jg..hati org bukan mcm mainan..pandai sakit jg tu.. nahhh..fr u LB..

I did it and i 'm sure that the best decision

I've tell him the truth about my feeling last Thursday. And now he become my friend. We are OK become friend than couple. Last night he want to turn back with me but i can't. That my final decision and i will not change it. I'm really sorry to hurt you. You said that the same thing will happen to me in my future..but it's ok..that what we call life..klu dh xda komitmen mau bcouple jgn sj bh..remember this..love someone that love you. nway, Forget about him and continue with my life.

Things i want to do on my Holiday:

1: Traveling : Visit the wonderful place in the country
2: Decorate my own room
3: Day at the beach ( walk with my dog )
4: Hit the holiday sale
5: Get healthy
6: Go on off-road trip : I like adventure.
7: Get a make over : I want to get a curly hair. Mine is curl but it not too curl now.
8: ....
still got a lot in my mind. It will randomly come on my holiday.. xD

Someone told me This

last Tuesday someone told me that he doesn't love his girlfriend.
it's make me think like ouh..! we are in the same situation then. I did't love my boyfriend and i don't know why. Hate this feeling...!!

 Sometimes i need to listen to my own feeling...

This time, I have to listen to my feeling ..I just need to tell him the truth..is it really bad for me to say that?? hmm..i'll think about it and tell him when it is a perfect time.

IT'S NOT EASY..I'M SORRY..

Now i got time for my blog

It's had been 2 months i didn't write anything on my page.

well,i had a busy month.I need to prepare for my final exam.Until today,i still have two papers to go.i had finish my 6 papers.thanks God.The questions is totally hard to answer but i do my best.

My exam papers:

1.General Education 1 & 2
2.History 1 & 2
3.Business Education 1 & 2
4.Economic 1 & 2


my last paper is on Dec 13..can't wait to finish it.I just want to enjoy my holiday after exam.

No..it's not OK..!

I will not say "It's OK" from now on ..!

...said "IT's OK" does not mean it's all OK. to fortify others so i just say it "It's ok" .. hmmm ... it's would make my mind disturbed..want to explode like a big BOOM..!! everything is wrong.. all I did is not ok ..

so,to solve my problem I tried to stay calm, think positively and try not to get ANGRY..

forget about L.O.V.E

After struggle with love issue i think i have to forget about it from now on. Have to FOCUS in my study.
firstly...
there a lot of things that i have to do before the times is gone.
i have only about TWO MONTH before the BIG EXAM...
i'm not ready for it. 8 papers is not easy. but i have to do my best. but how..??? I'm try hard to have a better result in my last exam or i'm "dead" to my devil teacher. I have to prove that i can do it. hahaa..wish me luck..!

Today totally ruined..rosak abis..

I got two eyes..yup..xda rabun2..perfect eyes lg tu..but why msti tyme jln2 ada sj la sy ni terlanggar tiang or someone or anythings la..bt malu sj bh. Ari ni sy tlnggar tiang di boulevard..pnya la bsr tiang tu tp msh jg tlanggar..bengong..mata sy juling ke? sy tgk ok je pn..nsib sj org xda sn..if x mmg malu abis la..then tyme jln2 hmpir tjatuh plak di lantai..ni smua slh si selipar..nnt buang kt laut bru tau..nsib sj x jtuh btol2..kasi saham turun sj..yg paling teruk ari ni tlanggar pntu msk di Blvard..akaii....hmir lebam o kepala..sapa la pnya idea p pasang pntu cermn tu..klu auto buka xpa jg..ni x..buka sndri..dh la byk org lg tgk..ahahah..nsib sy pndai blakon..bt2 x tau je pastu..jln mcm x pnh blaku pn..clumsy me..!!

Apa mcm sda ni???

My heart still dupdup when I meet you..gila ke apa..mkin sy mau lupa kn dia mkin sy ingt kt dia..mcm bdk2 btol la..ahahhaa...knpa blh jd mcm ni..?? org sda ada gf la oiii...!!!! stop looking at him..please laa...xde makna nya..if dia single xpa jg..aiyaaa...u ni arrr..bh sy mau kasi crta dlu ni..knpa o if sy ada d mn2 msti ada dia? bkn sy p kjr dia pn. tp mmg dh mcm tu..dia pnya gf mmg untung la dpt smone mcm dia..wait2..perangai dia mcm mn o?? sy tgk la kn..ok2 je pn..mcm bdk2 pn ada jg..klu dia senyum mmg mulut dia jd senget..ahahaa..keunikan bh tu..muka jgn d pandang..hati dlu km check..issh2...study lg km sn..!

Things I want to do

There's a lot I want to do in this precious life. If I have money I will help all the poor people..but I'm not billionaire..that org kaya pnya tugas.. hidup ni enth bila2 blh gol..tpikir jg sy mau bt pa yg lbh bfaedah n ican enjoy myself with people surrounding me..happy2 always bh..

1.CAMPING..di dlm hutan yg selamat..

 mcm dlm pic tu..tp yg tu over lonely plak..bt asalkn selamat n i'm ok..xmau la p hutan yg ada anaconda tu. da jk x blik2 nnt..ahhaaa..btw,bkn pa sy mau try ni.sy ni jnis yg tkt gelap..mau tdur pn msti on lmpu..d hutan xda lmpu so mau try la..mengatasi ketakutan d hutan plus lbh enjoy..then msti ada sungai yg jernih if mau p camping dlm hutan..tujuan utama mau mndi sungai..yuuhuuuu..!!

2.TOUR SARAWAK and SABAH...!

Sy ni org Sarawak.asl di Miri..mmg dr kecil lg dh stay di miri..paling jauh sy pnh p smpai di Sri Aman..mau pijak Kuching pn blm..if d airport dia sda la..jst blm round2 mcm tourist lg..i want to try take roads that I never taken before..I may discover many quirky treasures about this land we call HOME..then di Sabah..mau p tgk pantai dia sj pn ckup la..plus mau p panjat G.Kinabalu if blh la..angan2 je tau..

3.WALL(rock) CLIMBING

Wall climbing would helps to build both of agility and our biceps. Tyme kcil2 sy panjat pokok sj pn. nama jg tahun monyet so perangai pn mcm monyet ckit2..ahhaha..btw,i would prefer to try the indoor rock climbing gyms..yg sy tau ada di Camp 5 di One Utama sj..yg lain d mn o.??

4.WRITE

Dr kcil lg sy sda menulis..mcm2 sy tulis.surat cinta sda.surat sakit sda.surat rasmi x rasmin pn sda..mcm2 ada..but nw I want somethings new..doesn't matter if it's poetry, a book, a review, or even a song...blog no need la..sda ada..there's something very significant about putting down our thoughts, ideas, dreams into a words. Best thing is, I'll get to look back at my 'Work ' many years down the road and catch ' glimpses ' of the person you were...yg ni sy sda start dh..best jg o..ada yg happy,sad n mcm2 la..mmg ketawa jg sy bca kdang2..

Letter to my Siblings

i love all of you and i do miss you when you are not around..isshh2..kali ni sy mau tulis surat cinta fr km 4 org..

Dear Sisters,
both of you are the beautiful person in the world but u know ake lg gap.. :D..ihihiih.. nw both of u are not with me here n I feel so so borink..but,sometimes if ekem un pn mls jg aku tgk.ahhaa..but i thankful coz i have both of you as my sister..jd aku pnya deriba..

Dear Brothers,
both of you are awesome..!!! cehhh..yela tu..kaki bully..pling sy suka tyme tumbuk2 mcm WWE..sy tau sy x kuat tp bst jg tmbuk2 org..sy tau sy tmbuk talak sakit..tu la sy ska tmbuk..xda rasa pn..tp jgn tmbuk sy kuat o nnt sy ngis bru tau..toinkk2..bab pling best main judi sama lu dua..sy msti mng pnya..main gn otak lor..ahahaha..manyak untung i kna lu dua..ahahhaa..just a games k.. peace no war.. :p

my bro sda gila..!

such a jerkk!..he's just 16 yrs old and now he think that he's cool..although your body are twice bigger than mine..im not afraid of you..! sy lastik dr jauh sj ko tu..naaa...nnt klu km ssh jgn cri sy o..skati kau je mau tikam2 sy gn barang. kalau la sy ni lelaki mmg sy tumbuk2 ko pnya muka itu.kasi buaya mkn..ni skati je mau mrh org. nnt klu dady blik ko sruh dia beli utk km k. sy blh bg pnjam tp sy pn mau gn bh..sapa sruh km kasi rosak itu lappy dlu..naaa..skrg mau gn sy pnya..sabar2 je la tnggu..byk lg hmwrk sy mau bt ni..tp blog2 la dlu..ahahhaa..sj2 bh ni..nnt klu km baca ni tau2 la km sy mau bg buaya mkn km..d tmn buaya 2 sy tikam km nnt..sy kuat d blog sj. jgn tikam sy lg gn barang..skit o..sot bro!!

Start Your Engine...!

What make you wake up on the morning...?
Aduhh..knpa la sy ni bgn awl sgt ari ni..?? dh la cuti lg 2. dh tbiasa sda bgn pgi awl sgt mau turun sklh. pkl 5 sda bgn.. tyme cuti la org tdo lma2 smpai tghari. Pa pnya mata la ni. slh timing btol ko ni bgn..aiyaaa..nnt klu tyme sklh ssh plak dia mau bgn. tu la sllu lmbt p sklh. pkul 6.45+ bru mau smpai. mn x nya nama sllu kna tulis itu pngawas gate..nyaman km..!!bt malu senior sj bh..ehh..yaka??malu la mrka?? last year d sklh bh ni..skati sy laa. cigu talak marah sma sy pn..ehhehee.. Cuti ni pnya la byk homework. btimbun2 cigu bg..ingat sy ni robokop ke??xda kecian ka sma sy cigu?? letih sy tulis menulis ni..dh la tgn lembab sgt. tulisan pn sda jd cakar ayam gituu..x mcm tulisan pmpuan sda..malu la sy..harap2 cigu semua paham yerr..BTW,bt homework pgi2 la sy suka..byk idea yg sy mimpi mlm td..tp relevan ke??hmmm..pndai2 la cigu check..sapa sruh jd cigu..ahaha..good job my cigu..syg km smua..!  hmmmm...sy bjanji akan siap kn smua homework sy..kcuali si ekonomoney..! ssh bh 2..kasi pening palak tgk keluk2..x ngam sy ni jd business women..lg pn sy pn xmau stress mcm cigu eko..tkt deh..! masam2 ko pnya muka. senyum cikit talak..tu pasal la sy pn sda kna virus tyme class km. masam2 ekonomoney sda..apa mcm mau bljar..? klu km snyum cikit pn sda sy cukup bsyukur sda..no hard feeling o cigu..wlpa2 pn,sy tetap syg km..